I’ve always loved to travel.
My dream has been to sell all my possessions, and drive across country with no time limit, buying a van that is big enough for me to lay down and sleep in the back, but yet small enough that it won’t cost me a fortune on gas.
As an introvert, I’ve loved the idea of being alone on the open road. But recently I’ve begun to question that. Question the alone part.
Sometimes I wonder if God has in store for any of us to be alone.
It’s commonly said that we’re created to be in communion/community with one another, that God created us with the innate desire to be wed, to marry, to be attracted to another and choose one person to share the highest level of intimacy with…
I’m going to be honest that hasn’t made sense to me. It’s always seemed easier to live by myself…
I have come to discover that relationships can be a source of agony and pain, or they be a source of blessings and growth. For many of us they have mostly been sources of agony and pain. So we choose to separate ourselves from people. From relationships.From having to be vulnerable.
We put up the walls and barriers that keep others out and choose to numb ourselves from experiencing or feeling anything. Yes, it eliminates the chances of being hurt, but it also eliminates the chances of experiencing and feeling loved.
As a late blooming twenty something. I’ve discovered that what makes me vulnerable makes me beautiful. Vulnerability allows me to be seen, and therefore gives the opportunity for me to be loved, truly loved, for who God created me to be.
We all have a choice in life, and that choice is to choose between isolation or intimacy. Maybe there are seasons in which God has called us to be in isolation… but the question is:
When God does call you out of isolation and into intimacy will you embrace the courage to take a step of faith into who God has created you to be, allowing your walls and barriers to come down, inviting others into your life and onto the open road with you…?